Currently listening to: One by Adam Lambert

My last post for the year!

For the year 2010 that is to come, in about 10 hours, I'm hoping I'll be a better person - a better daughter, sister and friend but mostly importantly, a better child of God.

2009 was beyond challenging from many angles - from studies to love to friends to family. Being the kind of girl who searches for that silver lining of every dark cloud, I have to admit that the year 2009 has taught me many valuable lessons. Hopefully, I'll carry these lessons in my mind as I proceed towards the new year.

If I reflect any further, I'm afraid I'll just end up in tears.

Countdown tonight.  I'm just anticipating the beginning of a new year and the end of a tough one. I wonder what God has in store for me.

My apologies to those whom I've hurt intentionally and unintentionally, and a big, warm thank you to those who have stood by me through every circumstance, be it sweet or bitter.

Happy New Year everybody! :)

Currently listening to: Miss You Most by Mariah Carey

Although the Christmas spirit within me isn't as enthusiastic as the years before (I'm starting to think it's the age or it could be the constant thought of A-Level examinations lingering at the edge of my mind which are two weeks away btw), the gifts and wishes have curtailed, the true meaning of Christmas still remains crystal clear in my heart, soul and mind. I'm hoping it's the same for everyone out there.


Merry Christmas lovelies! =)

A few of my favourite Christmas tracks:

Miss You Most - Mariah Carey

Last Christmas - Jimmy Eat World

The Christmas Song - Josh Groban

8 Days Of Christmas - Destiny's Child

Jingle Bell Rock

Santa Baby

What Child Is This?

All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey

I'll Be Home For Christmas

Silent Night

O Holy Night

Angels We Have Heard On High

Feliz Navidad

White Christmas - Il Divo

With much love ♥,

Becca

Currently listening to: Dancin' by Elisa

I never truly felt it until the days drew nearer.
I completely lied about progression.
Probably only to convince myself.
But it doesn't matter now anymore.
Maybe that's why.
Lost, forgotten.
Perhaps this is what "happiness" is supposed to be.

Was it real? All I need to know.

Currently listening to: Life After You by Daughtry

This is perfect! I was just having a heart-to-heart talk with Casandra last night (when I was supposed to be reading up on Business or Mechanics) and we eventfully landed on the topic of 'happily ever after'. After much scrutiny and lessons from our past relationships, we have both deduced that there is in fact no such thing as 'happily ever after'. Lo and behold! Guess what I stumbled upon today to clearly depict our conclusion.

You won't always have a pumpkin coach waiting for you everywhere, Cinderella

Snow White will eventually have to take on the role of a mother and look after her children

Even Belle the 'Beauty' turns ugly at some point

Princess Jasmine will have to fight in war

Rapunzel will grow bald at some point

Sleeping Beauty will not always have her young, dashing Prince Charming to kiss her awake

   And Little Red Riding Hood won't be so little anymore

Sorry to be morbid, young ones but the truth does hurt. Don't say I never warned you when your knight in shining armor doesn't appear through the thick, dark forest to save you from misery or when Prince Charming doesn't come to kiss you awake from your deep slumber. :)

Currently listening to: I Wanted You by Ina

Blogger is being mean to me! I can't post videos for some reason. The icon is somewhat missing.

I just wanted to post a video to the song, I Wanted You by Ina.
I like the lyrics and it's the perfect song dedication. Yes, I like songs that are slow and comprise of words that are meaningful. Just who I am, sorry.

Currently listening to: Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert

The musical is finally done and over with. I think I've been sounding as if I dread the whole performance which is really wrong of me. I have to admit there are days when I'm just beat from all the practices especially during college days and all I want to do is just sleep all night long. It took me some time to realize that my participation in this musical is part and parcel of the process of being His instrument to reach out to others through simple dance and music. I'm thankful for that golden opportunity. All glory and praise goes to Him.

Last night was the final performance and I was extra nervous as a few of my friends were there to witness the whole experience. I love them all for being so supportive and open. All pictures are on everyone's favourite website, Facebook. But just for decorations, I shall post a few here.

 

 The sanctuary choir

 

The dancers

 

 Ruth and Josie were so pretty!

  

 My favourite people

  

 Hainan clan!

 

I like this picture haha.

Mommy came into my room to have a heart-to-heart talk with me just now. It's been a long time since one of those deep conversations and for once, I'm glad she did because mother's intuition - it's an extremely powerful tool in dire times like these. Thank you Mommy!

Anyhow, I'm in the festive mood. Anyone up for a cooking and baking party?

Currently listening to: Shut Up & Drive by Rihanna

It's ironic how the cry baby finds it so difficult to cry these days.

This is the Singapore Flyer. Did you know that you can dine in those pretty cabins? Wishing someone would take me on a date in one of those. *Hint hint*

Currently listening to: Big Girls Don't Cry by Jordan McCoy

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, myself and I
We got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

Memories can be embellished but people change and so do times. Words aren't perpetual and they only portray truth for a limited period of time. It took me 8 long months to realize all these, through the most difficult ways, through many, many lonely nights, amidst pools of tears and runny noses but the rough journey was definitely worthwhile. For now, it's me against the world.

If someone you love hurts you, cry a river, build a bridge and get over it.